Mixed Feelings ' _ '
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim... Hari ni muka rasa ketat sangat..rasa susah nak senyum..puncanya hati yang caca marba ni..a s if I can feel that my nafs trying to persuade me to do incorrect things..and I've been praying last night, asking strength from Allah to beat my own nafs.. These few days, I realized that I might have been doing improper things coz following my nafs..and it make me hate myself..huhuhu..This is really a tough battle indeed.. and today I am fasting..this is one way to control our nafs. O Allah, I only hope the strength, the sabr from You, My Highest Rabb... I think I am having PMS too.. Scientifically, hormonal change can lead to emotional distortion as well, but, I do not want this to make me far from Allah, far from His Blessings..I might not feel happy right now, but I must defeat this feelings..It make people around me, my loved ones affected. Please help me O Allah..You are The Creator of this feeling, only You I hope to erase it, replace it with happines